Some people were born utterly driven.  They are tireless.  They are productive.  They never slow down.  I am not one of these people but I was once more ambitious.  I don’t know what eroded that ambition -  defeats along the way, more ambitious competition or complacency – but at some point it felt like I was to comfortable and didn’t have more strive in me.

Daniel Plainview in There Will Be Blood says “I have a competition in me; I want no one else to succeed.”  I need to regain my competition.  My father would often watch these huge epics where men walked over the Earth in search of treasure of some sort or another, or would trudge on these vast military campaigns – being pawns in huge global dramas, and he’d say “wouldn’t they have been happier if everyone stayed at home?”

Yes, everyone probably would have been happier if they had all just stayed at home.  Far fewer people certainly would have been hacked to death.  There’s also something to be said for leaving your mark on the world.  It’s hard to get ambition if you don’t got it, but sometimes a small spark can really set off a huge conflagration.  All that dead wood that’s built up in my head and my life over the past few years – I think – will set off a most wondrous era.